Deserve Me

Chords

And it happens again…
A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal, and do I deserve this?

When I met you in high school, I felt overwhelmed
at getting attention for the first time. It sounds
like a pitiful cliché, a lame kiss-and-tell
but the story takes twists and I can tell it myself
I always adored you, the way you'd stand up
for yourself and for me, but I couldn't handle
the tempers and tantrums you'd throw at random
told myself it was my fault, 'cause I couldn't man up
and that was the last time, I said, and I said
and it happens again

A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal, and do I deserve this?

We laid out in your backyard naming every star we saw
back when both your hands were gentle, and your speaking voice was soft
you joked that Romans made up constellations on the spot
and I believe that even Grecians beat me at connecting dots

'cause for every side you showed me, I'd soften, or I'd try
to justify with reasons pleading for you in my mind
I only see you sweetly when I see the stars at night
leave it to the only person that could ruin half the sky

I just want to tell her I miss my best friend
And it happens again…

A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
When did this become so normal…?

A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest
A kick to my ego, a lack of defense
As though in slow motion, you wind up again
What do I deserve…?

I'm finally ready to admit this wasn't my fault
to learn that love does not exist when I feel this small
and I can count on one hand the times you made me feel worthy
I can count on one finger to say You Don't Deserve Me

No you don’t deserve me
No you don’t deserve…
I just want to tell her I miss my best friend